pink spider

Tuesday, 5 May 2009

Nothing seems right

I don't know why but for the past few weeks or months since the holidays nothing i do seems right. I always get the feeling that what ever i do is like meaningless. Sometimes i don't even have mood to watch shows, eat, go out. Life feels very empty its like something is not complete.

I think i need to find someone to do stuff with and to have a way to shifting my attendtion, to show some love and etc you know what i'm talking about.

"Life" do get better for me i don't want to feel like this.

crucify my love @ 16:06

Thursday, 26 February 2009

I've Found It

I've Found It

And This time its going to stay.

I've found my dream.

Many of you may know that i like to cook or should i say i LOVE to cook. Recently i've been watching cooking shows and videos.

(This is going to be quite lenghty)

What i love about cook: i love that how a few simple things made properly can turn into something so wonderful. I also love how the way raw food transform after cooking into something which could be totally different. I love the way how meat when cooked changes colour, texture, taste. The are so many possiblility and where do i start.

I may love to cook and seeing how food changes but at the end of the day of any meal cooked by any person is to see the people eating your food loving it and wanting more, that kind of satisfaction and sense of achievement is so great. But the true happiness of cooking is to see the smiles of those people. They do not have to say anything or even pay anything if it was at a restaurant, just seeing the smiles on peoples face after eating your food is the same as maybe doing volunteering work.

I've finally realise what being a chef is about and will be like. it will be hot in the kitchen there may be people shouting at you but at the end of the day the most important thing is the process.

I've been watching kitchen nighmares and its been an eye opener, i don't understand how people can serve unhygenic food to other people. like food kept for days, cooked the day before and then served the next day. And the level of hygiene of the kitchen it makes me wonder whether we are served this way here in singapore.

Watching the show has also given me an eye into opening your own restaurant. ITS FREAKING HARD. but that is my ultimate dream. having a restaurant which i go to everyday and serve good food to people and seeing the happy faces after a good meal.

Right now i feel like i have sort of wasted 3 and a half years. But i'm just going to finish it and proceed with NS and after that i would love to go to shatec to the institute of culinary arts. After that maybe work at a restaurant for a year or two and during that time plan to open a restaurant.

It all sounds so wonderful but i know its not going to come true if i do not work towards it. Thats y i very determined to do so. and i hope i get the opportunity to do so.

I don't any1 will be reading this but hey it could very well be a reminder for me in the future.

crucify my love @ 01:26

Monday, 23 February 2009

Where i would wanna be

This is where i would like to be in and spend the whole day inside going anywhere i want.

Wondering when that could happen

Happy dreaming for now

crucify my love @ 22:35

Monday, 1 December 2008

Fine

Whenever you ask if i'm fine i was always say "i'm fine".

Thats because i have not been fine for over a year and i'm living with "fine" being "Not Fine".

I think i will have to live with "Fine" being "Not Fine" for years to come.

crucify my love @ 20:21

In my Mind

Can it be like how i dream it would be when i'm asleep and dreaming or just sitting down and dreaming about it.

Would it turn out to be like how i hope it would be when ever i see something related to it.

Will it be like how i wondered it would be like all the scenario i picured.

Am i just thinking too much.

crucify my love @ 01:16

Wednesday, 22 October 2008

I can't live with or without you

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And Im waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, shes got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you

With or without you
With or without you
I cant live
With or without you
With or without you

Singing for the one you love while lying down together.
What more can you want.

Cherish each other for as long as you're breathing.

crucify my love @ 19:10

Sunday, 21 September 2008

LOTUS

A Lotus for ever trip.

Lotus Exige S for going out with a partner.